Gods Love Me Naked

This from a homebound cab

Too much light

And way too many trams

Love shines bright

Amidst all this traffic

Seeking to capture a bit

Of this voluptuous city of love

Where every damn thing shines bright

It’s like  a bloody conspiracy

To hide the blank numb pain.

This city is a big black gutter

That shocks us into silence and aversion

And a breeze that smells of dried up skin and puke

And the cab’s moving, roaring,

Fast forward.

Wish life was like this.

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Carnival carnival it shakes

With lack of real causes to celebrate

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This mourning is for the lack of time

Green. Red white and yellow

Glasses, trees, leaves and lots of skin

Smooth shoulderblades for desire, no boobs in public

Hypocrites and stale beings

All falling short on the imagination front.

It’s all on me. And the shortcuts that make us smile

And happy beds for happy penguins

And all of them are happy

For absurd reasons

That bother me.

Because what’s killing me is exactly what’s making them live.

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Love.... wait i need a drag....

Ahhhh

Yeah,

so love

is shit.

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Tedious city

Crabs and sharks

And infrastructure under roaring indications of my indictment

Damn!

Mother,

I feel so fucking sexless tonight.

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In the heart of springs in the spring of hearts

Flowers boom at the sun

It’s a war of the heart and intellect everywhere

Psychology be damned, morality be a whore

I exist tonight.

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Angry gods ready to bring the skies down now

I say, it’s for the birds with fiery wings

Four worshippers on four corners, one big river

Too much sound. Insanity wages war against mediocrity.

Much detachment tires the soul out.

This, i know

From experience.

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To die in her arms, tonight

Is like getting a way out

From where there where there’s none

Is like a respite

When the many others

Are baying for your blood.

I remember, quite clearly

One steady step, two. And she was still looking at me

And by the seventh, she wasn’t,

And neither was i.

It’s as if someone with a broken spine

And shot through the overestimated heart twice

Is getting back on stride.

The whole concept of me,

Being there, then

Made me happy.

And this was way long back.

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Emotion be damned, it was an hour of maddening eternity

And all i remember is

Looking into her eyes and thinking

That she’s trying to gauge mine

With hers.

Dunno whether she found any reason or resource

To believe that digging into this heart

Will be easy and comforting.

I was there, and i wanted her to believe.

I am here and i want to pass out, happy and indifferent.

As of now, all i recall are her eyes

Trying to peep into mine.

It was good. A few stars had died that night. We did not know.

Even the guards of heart didn’t.

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Kill the sharks, kill the stars

Kill the haters of this heart

The tragedy of this hour,

as we all know,

is baseless

And the monsters keep on getting bigger

And the toxins more potent

Until they are all elements

Too fatal for love

And too damn nasty

for

this

reckoning.

I am drunk. And i do not care.

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